transfixed.

pretty much most of my brain space, is filled up with thoughts of you.
pathetic, i know.

but i can't help it, i don't know why, but something just keeps pulling me back to you.
as much as i would like to move on with my life, i'm finding it pretty hard,
i mean, i thought i was possibly getting over you?
yeahh. right.
still, i think i could have done it, given enough time and...minutes away from you?

but then you went and turned all that around,
and i'm back to square one.

i wonder what will happen next?

seriously?!

i don't understand why, when i really don't want something, everything comes at once.
i hate how i get myself into situations, where i really should have said no, but was too nice so i just went along with it anyway.
i hate how my emotions give me away and how one small thing can completely ruin my mood.
i try and change these things, but nothing seems to work.
yes it's depressing, but it's all i've ever been.

on the other hand, i can't complain too much atm...as my life finally seems to be on track.

reach for the stars, because even if you don't make it, at least you'll be among them