i made a mistake..

yes, a huge mistake i know.

but please...forgive me.

i hate myself.

the guilt is unbearable.
i can't stop thinking about it and it's eating me inside.

we've talked about it, but things were said which i regret. alot.
i didn't mean what i said, i was annoyed and upset that you didn't seem to care.
i know it seemed like i was making a bigger deal out of it than necessary, but i can't help the way i feel, even though it causes so much pain.
i guess i just wanted it to happen so much, i died a little when it became clear it wasn't what you wanted.

obviously i'm the one in the wrong, for even telling you how i felt in the first place.
fucking delusional.
why would you like me in the first place?