ohhhhh.

i need a job.

i am in debt for the first time,

and it is depressing.

not being able to buy anything is horrible,
not an experience i really want to repeat.

so, i need a job.

pausing.

hesitating.

stability is overrated.

dream the dream that hasn't been dreamt before.

i need clothes.

new clothes,

i honestly need some.

it's not that i want a new wardrobe or anything,

just a couple of summer t.shirts that will get me through the next couple of months.
that would be nice.

luck.

i think, in a weird way, i am kind of lucky,
as nothing horrific has ever happened to me,
i mean, yes i've had some bad experiences, but nothing that has really put me in depression,
so yes, i think i'm kind of lucky.

exams.

this is stupid,

i know i should be revising,

and i know that when it comes to the day of the exams i will be stressing madly,

and annoying everyone,

and it'll be all my own fault.

i've tried,

i guess just not hard enough.

and i've done two past papers,

and a couple of cue cards,

so that kind of makes me feel a tad better.

but really, it's a fail.

and i know,

that when i get my results and they're not as good as i wanted,

i'll only have myself to blame,

and i'll regret not revising when i had the chance.