what i'd never say.

a 'friend' alerted me to that fact that my blog says alot about me,
and how i'm feeling when i write certain posts.
and it's true, but i guess in a way it's an acceptable thing for me,
because it's not like i show my true feelings to many people anyway.
so yes, i get alot more emotional when writing,
than i do in public,
and sometimes i just let everything build up, until i write a horribly revealing post to make myself feel better, but that's just me.

and yes, when things get hard for me, i tend to write alot more posts,
which is why i've only been on here twice in the last few weeks,
but nothing is really as bad as it's probably read.
yes, there are things i would like to forget,
things that i'd rather had never happened,
but if they hadn't, i guess i wouldn't be the sarcastic person i am today.
which would lead onto something else,
my sarcasm is a shield for me,
it's a mask that lets me be someone who doesn't feel alot on the outside,
so yes, i can sound bitchy and all that,
but if you really knew me,
you'd know that's just a face i put on to deal with the world.

so i want to thank that 'friend',
because although they sounded extremely stupid and way too formal,
it made me realise that my blogs say exactly who i am,
in a way that i don't always like.
so i'm going to watch that,
and hopefully improve myself.