i think it's hard because i still think of you as one of my best friends,

and i know i'm shit with texting back and all of that,

but i always have been, so nothing's really changed there.

and i hate that i don't see you much,

and that we don't talk as much as i know we should,

and yes of course it's mostly my fault..

my organisation skills are pretty shocking for one,

and i find it hard to divide my time equally.

but i do know this, and i'm trying to change it..

just so i don't lose you completely.

but i think maybe if you put yourself in my shoes you'd realise why it would upset me,

and the biggest thing is, i thought you'd be the one to miss me,

because i expect the others probably don't.

so yes i miss you alot, and i hate that i didn't make more of an effort,

but just don't give up on me yet.