it happens when you least expect it,

that feeling of being alone.

you could be in a crowded room,

yet feel like the odd one out,

going unnoticed and alone,

even when you're surrounded by friends.

walking blind.

sometimes i feel as though i'm walking blindly through life,
not seeing much, yet feeling alot.
i used to wish i could see, everything, everywhere i went,
but now i know that it takes more to feel something,
than to take a glance and see something.

my computer crashed.

lovelovelovelovelovelove them.

♥

again i go unnoticed.

revision.

girl one: 'i had a dream about your ex-boyfriend last night'
girl two: 'you what?'
girl one: 'yeah, we fell in love'

and that is daytime television for you.

complicated.

i hate myself for feeling like this,
for still feeling something for you.
i have people telling me things that i never knew,
like how much you actually cared,
how much you talked about me,
and how you did actually feel bad about what happened.

which then makes me think that maybe you did mean what you told me,
maybe you honestly were just confused about everything,
and maybe it's my fault that i rushed you to decide.
but then i think of the 'recents'.
the ones who you're chasing,
or pursuing even.
and that makes me want to cry,
and makes me realise how lucky i was to not get hurt any deeper than i was.

errrrrrr.

i honestly thought it was over,
i thought i was done with the sadness,
but apparently there'll always be a place in my heart for you.
bastard.
i hate that it's there,
because you don't deserve it.
i want it to go,
because i'm sure you have a place in most people's hearts.