6 weeks to go...

there is no need to flirt with absolutely everyone..

especially when the person you're flirting with does not fancy you,

and the only reason you guys even talk is because of me,

so please don't do it.

i guess i'm jealous..

i mean, i don't really like to share,

and when it comes to a best friend,

sharing is not a good feeling.

sometimes i think maybe you prefer them to me?

but then you'll say something, a private joke between us two,

and i realise i'm being stupid.

again.

but still,

i know it's pathetic of me to even worry about it,

but i guess you mean that much to me,

that it's scary to think you'd go...

to someone else.

mmmmm...

it was different,

but so very lovely...

and even though not everything went as planned,

and some things were said that shouldn't have been,

overall, it was lovely.

unforgettable.



i love you.

i'm going to try and be nicer..

apparently this is how people are meant to be..

:')

feelings are hard to express,

and usually i'm pretty crappy at it anyway.

at first i thought it was different,

i wanted something new and exciting and not what i was used to,

but i guess what i really wanted, was to be different.

because sure i'm glad it all happened,

and yes i've enjoyed it and don't regret a thing,

but i think boredom is setting in, which is the old me.

i don't know why, but this always happens and i really want it to change,

because it'll only end up hurting in the end.