something different.

it's hard to talk about it.
i feel awkward and embarrassed when i try.
yet i want to talk about it,
i want to get it off my chest.

i really want to tell you,
but not by msn or text,
face to face,
because you deserve to be told that way.

yet, every time i arrange to see you,
something happens,
something stops me getting to you,
stops me telling you.

but i don't want it to change anything between us,
that is the last thing i want to happen.
but if i don't tell you,
you'll find out anyway,
by someone else,
from someone else's point of view.

so next time i see you,
i'm going to tell you.
i just hope nothing changes.